So, it's me, Crow here, and I just thought I should write a really short journal explaining where I've been over the past two months, and why I haven't posted anything during that time period.
So, you would think with school finally ending for me at the end of June, and after July first rolled around and the glorious Canada Day was celebrated, that with all this free time I had during this summer, I would be drawing and creating more fanart then I could before? I mean, sound reasonable, right? Well, that wasn't the case for me. I am not going to apologize for not making any art, as making art is my decision, and I make more for myself then anything, but still. The most I could say is that since about April, my interest in the Septiplier (I use that as simply a shorter way of saying Jack and Mark, I don't actually ship them, nor am I part of that part of the fandom.) community was draining. I did start working on one rather large piece during the summer, which I worked on and off on for a good week and a half to about two weeks I believe, but the project was such a large undertaking for me that I was intimidated whenever I tried to work on it, and I had some thoughts that it was maybe even going to take me the entire summer to finish.
This takes me to around the end of July, where I went away with my boyfriend's family on a trip for a week, which admittedly was very fun, and took me till August 1st to get back from, and my intent after I got home from that trip was to buckle down and try and get as much work on said project done, but, not even a week after that trip I took, my boyfriend broke up with me. It pulled me into a pretty bad depression, and I forgot all about that project I had been working on before. What's really shitty though is that I got a lot of inspiration to draw and create from the experience, based around all the extreme emotions I was feeling at the time, but sadly enough the sadness basically pulled all my motivation from me, and because of that, I haven't draw anything digitally in over 3 weeks.
For now though, I have been trying my hardest to simply work on dealing with my emotions, and feeling productive from trying to heal this wound I have instead of forcing myself to create when in this state it will only add more stress to my life. Not only that but I also start school, again in a week, and after that I'm gonna have a lot more shit to deal with besides just being sad because of my asshat of a boyfriend left me.
So, in short, I don't know when I'll start making digital art again, or whether if it'll even be Youtuber related, but I make no promises.
I hope you all have a good day.